#YestoGod Wholly Commited

As I was debating on which blog topic I wanted to write about this past week, it was clear to me after I went to church on Wednesday night. My Pastor talked about taking up our crosses and following him from Matthew 16:24-28. So I knew that wholly committed would be my topic.

One thing I have found to be interesting about this #YestoGod journey & Bible study that I started is that it came shortly around the time I made 2 decisions. The 1st was that my ‘one word’ for the 2nd half of 2013 would be “surrender” and the 2nd is that I decided to get re-baptized.

You can watch the video here. 🙂


Making the decision to get re-baptized is not only a beautiful symbol of surrender, but it also shows that I made a commitment to follow him publicly.

One of the things that my pastor mentioned that I made note of was that the word deny means to disown one self or own interests. So we have to make a daily decision that will either yield to the spirit or give into our fleshly desires – which is me most of the times. It also means that we need to be putting the things of God and His kingdom 1st. 

Surrendering or denying myself has been difficult because my crazy flesh keeps wanting to get in the way. I’m also used to being independent that it has been hard to let go of certain things that I feel I should be able to handle. But as previous experience has taught me it is in those small things that I need Him most.

He also said that the “cross” is a sign of commitment and when it says to “deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me”, Jesus is saying that we need to lay down our own will and take up “our cross”. In order to take up something we must lay something down.So in other words, we must lay down our own plans, desires, wishes and “take up” God’s calling, purpose, plan & will for our life. 

That is why I think this whole SURRENDER & YES TO GOD is so interesting. Especially since I’ve been saved for over 23, but I haven’t always been committed to God and His plan for my life. My journey has had many ups and downs and gone down many roads I wish I had never gone. But at the same time, if I hadn’t, I never would have had the pleasure of knowing that God “works for the good of those who love Him”. (Romans 8:28 NIV). Plus, it wouldn’t have shaped me into the person I am today.

The above post is in response to the  Yes to God Blog Hop week 3

#PalmsUp

Welcome to my blog & the 1st post for the online bible study for What Happens When Women Say Yes to God by Lysa TerKeurst hosted by Melissa Taylor through Proverbs 31 ministries.

For this weeks topic, I chose #3 #PalmsUp.
In the bible study section at the end of the chapter Lysa asks, “What is holding you back from going deeper in your relationship with God?” List one or more things you sense holding you back (fear, intimidation, time, lack of confidence, etc). Use your bible study tools to find scriptures that will help you apply God’s truth in this area. Determine to release, surrender, and move forward with #PalmsUp receiving all God has for you.
I first chose this topic when the OBS email was sent on Sunday. I hadn’t even read the 1st chapter yet, but I already knew this is the one I wanted write about. It was mostly due to the word “surrender” – which happens to be “My One Word” this year – or at least this 2nd half of the year. I didn’t chose my word until mid June, but the Lord has definitely confirmed my choice. 
Then last night at mid week Bible study at church, my Pastor spoke on “What Is In Your Hand?” He talked about how God called Moses to lead the Israelites out of Egypt & Moses told him how he was unqualified. Then in Exodus 4:1-5 God asked him “what is that in your hand?” And Moses said a rod. God told him to cast in on the ground and when he did it became a serpent. 

My pastor said that it wasn’t until Moses released what he was holding onto that God was able to finally bring it to life. God can’t use anything we are tightly holding on to.

For me, I believe that fear is one of the things that keeps me from going deeper in my relationship with God. Fear is very paralyzing and it is also the opposite of faith. I know deep down that I need to trust God more – especially in the areas of finances & my future – so that is why I chose the word SURRENDER. I want to surrender those fears to Him, let go off those things that I’m trying to hold on too tightly and live my life with my PALMS UP ready to receive what it is that God wants to give – or take away – as the case may be.

I wanted to share a few of my favorite quotes from Chapter One that really stood out to me.

In this first one, I love that she says we don’t need perfect circumstances or the perfect religious attitude or all the answers. We just have to surrender – there’s my word – all that’s clamoring for attention in our heart.

You don’t need perfect circumstances to be a woman who says yes to God. You don’t need the perfect religious attitude or all the answers to religious questions. You simply have to surrender all that’s clamoring for attention in your heart with the answer God is longing to hear spill from your lips, “Yes, God.” – p. 13 &14

This is a great quote on radical obedience.

You may be surprised to discover that radical obedience is not really that radical. It is really biblical obedience – but we’ve strayed so far from biblical obedience that it now seems radical. Then a little further down that paragraph, Lysa says, we will never experience the radical blessings God has in store for us without radical obedience. It is the road that leads to blessing. It is what happens when women say yes to God– p. 18

And here is another one with my word “surrender” along with radical obedience.

Saying yes to God isn’t about perfect performance, but rather perfect surrender to the Lord day by day. Your obedience becomes radical the minute this desire turns into real actions. Radical obedience is hearing from God, feeling His nudges, participating in His activity and experiencing His blessings in ways few people ever do. – p 19 

The following is a screenshot from my iPhone the quote about “God doesn’t call the qualified, He qualifies the called.” I’ve seen it posted in emails and on FB and I just love it because all the people that did great things for God in the Bible were just like you and me. Imperfect with our flaws & maybe even a past we’re not too happy about, but the great thing is God loves us and will use us despite our human imperfections. All we have to do is being a willing vessel and follow Him wherever he wants to lead us.
 

It’s No Secret – Week 1

I’m doing this online bible study hosted by Melissa Taylor & the name of the book is called “It’s No Secret” written by Rachel Olsen. Both ladies are a part of Proverbs 31 Ministries. **On a side note, if this post intrigues or inspires you in some way, it’s not too late to join.**

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I wanted to share some things that I’ve learned this week & some of my answers to the Bible study questions at the end of each chapter.

Chapter 1: Always RSVP: Revealing the secret to responding to God.

I RSVPed to God’s call in 1989. Then about 3 years later I decided to take a trip into the “far country” (see Luke 15:13). I finally returned to God in 2004 (you can read some background story at this link).

In the 1st Bible study question, Rachel asks us to read the parable about the man throwing a feast (Luke 14:15-24) and we are to list the excuses that people made for not being prepared to attend. Then, she asked what excuses we have made for not responding to Christ, or not being “dressed and ready”.

Well as I mentioned above, I did respond to Christ in 1989 & again in 2004 after 15 years of back-slidding. But that is not all that He asks of us. Once we are saved, we must continue on in our walk with Jesus in order to be ready for his return. Sometimes that is easier said than done. In Matthew 26:40, Jesus states that the “spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.” And, I can confirm from my own experiences that this statement is so true. As much as I want to read my bible & spend quiet time with God each day, the concerns & worries of this world seem to have taken dominance in my life. I also become self-absorbed at times in my hurts, feelings, & wants instead of focusing on God & what He wants of me.

Question 2 asks what Revelation 19:6-10 says about the bride (church) and her wedding dress? The NKJV says in verse 8 that, “…to her it was granted to be arrayed in fine linen, clean and bright, for the fine linen is the righteous acts of the saints.” My pastor has stated many times that when Jesus returns, he is looking for a church that is “without spot or wrinkle”. He’s also said that if no one wants to see a bride that looks like she’s been drug through the mud, then how much more true should it be for the bride of Christ. (I’m paraphrasing there because I can’t remember the exact quote). We need to be “dressed & ready” for His return & the only way we can do that is by the saving grace of Jesus. It’s through His shed blood that we are redeemed (Ephesians 1:17)

Chapter 2 – Know When to Pay Retail. Revealing the Secret Cost of Following Christ.

This was a powerful chapter in that it talks about the cost of following Christ.

THE TREASURE

She gave an example of the parables of the Hidden Treasure & the Pearl (Matthew 13:44-46)

In Verse 44 Jesus compares the kingdom of heaven to a treasure that a man discovered hidden in a field. The man hid it again & sold everything he owned to get the treasure. Then, in verses 45-46, Jesus compares the kingdom of Heaven to “a merchant on the lookout for choice pearls. When he discovered a pearl of great value, he sold everything he owned and bought it!” (NLT)

Here’s a couple quotes that really stood out to me of what Rachel had to say about both of these two parables.

The difference between these two parables is that in the first, the man simply stumbled upon the treasure… He’s an everday guy who happened upon the treasure and realized its worth.” (p. 46)

The field buyer’s story tears down my tendency to think living sold out for God is only expected of monks, scribes, nuns, pastors or missionaries. Nope, this sold-0ut living – and the treasures it brings – is for any and every Yahweh Sister. It’s for each gal willing to pay the price in her daily life to follow Christ.” – Since I’m an just your average sister in Christ, I must be willing to pay the price in my daily life to follow Christ. “The pearl merchant, unlike the field buyer, actively searched for his treasure.” – I must be actively searching Him & his will. “Both of these characters recognized the worth of the treasures they encountered and literally dropped everything to obtain them.” (p. 47) – Since I know the true worth of what Jesus did for me, I must also be willing to drop everything to follow Him.

THE COST

“…there is a great price to pay to lay full hold of the treasures of God’s kingdom. I consider it the price of abandon.” (p.47)

He wants to disciple us and show us the way to the treasure, but that requires some focus and a surrendered commitment on our end. In other words, we must abandon ourselves to Him and sell out to the one true thing worth selling out to.” (p. 48) Wow. I love that statement. Jesus paid the ulimate price for my sins on the cross and, do I believe that is definitely worth selling out to. Absolutely. So, I need to make it my goal to daily abandon myself to go ‘all out for Jesus & not be wishy-washy about it. Because I’m either in or I’m out.” (Another paraphrase from my pastor)

Another parable she discusses is the one about the rich, young ruler (Luke 18:18-23).

Jesus essentially says to him, If you really want to enter into true life, sell out to Me with careless abandon. Give up your allegiance to all your stuff and your power, and content yourself in walking daily with Me.” … “Only he didn’t recognize it. He didn’t have the eyes to see it’s worth. He misjudged the value of the kingdom of God and settled for his stuff – a counterfielt pearl.” (p. 50)

In Luke 18:24-27, “Jesus points out that weath provides a sense of security, comfort, and pride that can cloud our spiritual vision, causing us to miss the worth of the kingdom of God.” (p. 50-51) Rachel then goes on to say that, “This shakes me to my core when I get honest about how much time I spend pursuing creature conforts instead of the treasure of Christ.” – Wow. I could totally relate to that statement. Since l know that I can’t take my “stuff” with me when I die, why do spend so much time trying to accumulate things that don’t last. When I think about all the times I’ve wasted sitting in front of the TV watching re-runs of shows & movies I’ve seen a 1000 times, instead of spending that time pursing God in His word & through prayer. I feel bad.

But I love what Jesus says next. After the disciples & witneses wondered aloud who could be saved if this rich, young ruler couldn’t be, “Jesus assured that salvation will always be impossible for man to earn, but God will give it to those who yeild it to Him…. then Jesus let the disciples know that even more will be given to those who not only yield, but wholeheartedly sell out to Him with abandon.” (p. 51)

In Luke 18:28-30, Jesus promises that whomever has given up everything to follow him will be repaid many times over in this life as well as receiving eternal life… I love it, because that is a wonderful promise to hang on to. Anything that I have to give up to follow him will be worth it.

Rachel states next that, “This motivates me to examine my heart and see if I’m barely yielding, or really abandoning myself to God. Am I the pearl merchant, or the rich, young ruler?” – This were 2 great questions that I also need to ask myself as well.

Through these parables, Jesus reveals the paramount worth of the kingdom of God, and the secret reality that anything we give or lose as a result of following Him is more than a bargain for what we’ll receive in return.” (p. 52) – I’ll say “Amen” to that!

I’m a die-hard bargain shopper, but Jesus has taught me that one thing is worth my all, worth paying retail for: the kingdom of God and its King, Jesus” (p. 53) – I’m also a bargain shopper as well & prefer to buy most stuff when it’s on sale. But I agree that the kingdom of God & it’s King, Jesus are DEFINITELY worth paying retail price.

The 1st question that Rachel asks in the Bible study is, “What character do you identify with most: the stumbling field-buyer, the searching pearl merchant, or the rich, young ruler?”

If I’m honest, I think I’m a mix of the searching pearl merchant & the rich, young ruler. On the one hand, I want to live completely sold out for Jesus and live my life with total abandon. However, because of a prideful & selfish spirit, there are still areas that I’m struggling to leave at the altar. I guess you could say that I’m sort of a control-freak when it comes to certain things and because people I were close to have let me down in the past, I have a difficult time trusting God with those same things. It’s really hard, but I’m slowly starting to trust God and know that He truly does have my best interests at heart.

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Well, I could probably go on, but it’s getting late and I know this post is LONG enough. So, in closing, I wanted to share a video I found on YouTube. The song is, ironically called, Souled Out and it’s by Hezekiah Walker. We sing this song in church & I started singing it to myself while reading this chapter. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do. 🙂

My favorite part of the song goes:

My heart is fixed, my mind’s made up
No room, no vacancies, I’m all filled up
His Spirit lives in me
– and that’s the reason – I’m Souled Out!