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A Penny For Your Thoughts?

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Last week, I was drawn to the blog of Nicki Koziarz & she had written a blog post sharing how she is on a 30 day quest for God to interrupt her life – her every day, common life. With a little hesitation, something stirred in me that made me decide to “join her” on her quest. She’s already on day 7, but you can read her original post here.  http://nickikoziarz.com/2012/05/interrupt-life-jesus/

So, this post is kind of a reaction to saying “God, interrupt me.” And I believe one of the first things God is doing in my life is interrupting my thoughts about Him & how he answers prayers. Because of my belief system and things that I’ve heard growing up, I guess you could say that I kind of put God in a box on how He operates. But something happened to me on Saturday morning that has started to change my thinking. I found how amazing it is that God can speak to us in the most ordinary things, if we’d only take the time to listen.

Before I went to bed on Friday night I had been studying some stuff in the Bible that I was really getting excited about learning. But there were some things were still confusing me & I verbally expressed my questions to God before getting ready for bed. I had also said some ‘formal’ prayers as well afterwards.

In the morning when I got up, I was still half asleep, so I stumbled into the kitchen to fix some breakfast before deciding to get online & read my email devotionals. After I finished eating, I came back into the bedroom – because that’s where my computer is set up – and I had noticed there was a shiny, almost brand new penny lying on my bed.

When I first found the penny, my initial thought was that I must’ve dropped it earlier in the week and that it had landed on the bed & it got buried beneath the sheets. Then as I tossed and turned during the night, it became visible & that’s how I was able to find it. So, I didn’t think much of it & set it aside on my night stand.

I had originally got online to check my email, but I got distracted because my mind was wandering to what I was studying the previous night. So, I decided to visit the website of a Christian program that I watch frequently on TV and do a search for this particular topic. Five episodes came up in the results and since I’d already seen the first one, I decided to watch the next one down in the list.

About half way through the 1st part of the interview, this pastor and author happened to mention the very thing that I had been questioning the night before. Not in the same words, but the same idea and concept were being discussed. Then, when they went to the break to give an opportunity to purchase the book that he was offering, I knew it couldn’t just be a coincidence that I was lead to search this particular website & click on this particular show. The book that was being offered was a book that I had thought about buying previously within the last year while browsing the bookstore. I had actually picked it up on several occasions, but decided to put it back because it wasn’t what I was looking for at the time.

I paused the show and as I sat there in shock & awe, my attention was averted back to that penny that I had found on my bed that morning. The phrase a “penny for your thoughts” came to mind. So I decided to look it up & I came across the following information from wisegeek.com:

“…when the saying originated, a penny was worth a lot more. Thus, a “penny for your thoughts” when the expression was first used likely indicated the thoughts were more value to those imploring the listener to give them than they are by today’s standards. Still, the phrase is hardly ever taken as an insult even today. Therefore, if someone offers a “penny for your thoughts,” feel honored they think enough of you to value your opinion.”
http://www.wisegeek.com/what-does-a-penny-for-your-thoughts-mean.htm

The definition reminded me of a picture I saw that was shared on the FB page of JD Chandler from KLOVE. The picture is for a penny off a pound of ham & people were jokingly commenting of what a ‘great deal’ it was and that they just ‘had to go get it now’. I don’t know if it was a typo or if they were being serious about the discount, but I thought it was quite funny myself, since a penny today isn’t worth much as far as a huge savings go. You can view it at the link below.
http://www.facebook.com/KLOVEJDChandler#!/photo.php?fbid=10150821673646021&set=a.122152931020.113353.91746921020&type=1

The reason I’m sharing this is because when I read that definition, it was as if God was telling me that He valued me & my questions. So, because of the honesty and sincerity of my questions, He decided to answer it. It’s also what prompted me to share that particular verse at the beginning of the post.

This just totally made my day because in my finite mind, I wasn’t doing anything spiritual or even praying a ‘special prayer’. I was just basically thinking out loud & ‘talking to myself’. But, the God of the universe who never sleeps or slumbers heard me that night & decided to answer. It also told me that I don’t have to pray a ‘formulated prayer’ or use ‘fancy words’ for God to hear me. All I have to do is be honest & sincere about whatever I am concerned about, believe that He will hear, and that He will answer. And that He did. 🙂

By the way, I was so excited about all this that since I already had to run out later to do an errand, I decided to purchase the book. And, if you must know the name of the book, it’s called “10 Curses That Block the Blessing” by Larry Huch. I don’t have time to go into all the details right now of why I needed or wanted this book since it’s a topic of a WHOLE new discussion. But let’s just say, I read it from cover to cover that night & it brought me to tears on several occasions. So I highly recommend it, if it’s something you are interested in personally. 🙂

A Confident Heart – Week 2

 
I just completed week 2 of the online Bible study of ‘A Confident Heart’ by Renee Swope, hosted by Melissa Taylor. It’s not too late to join if you’re interested. Just click on her website here & sign up.
 
The assignments for week 2 are posted here – http://melissataylor.org/2011/09/24/a-confident-heartweek-2-2/
 
 
The WORD OF THE WEEK is LOVE
 
 
1 John 4:16 (27 kb)
 
 
 
VERSE OF THE WEEK: 1 JOHN 4:16
 
God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him (her). 1 John 4:16
 
I really enjoyed chapter 2 & there was a lot of good information in it, so I just wanted to post a few highlights that I learned this week. Just a fair warning, it is a little long. 🙂
 
The title of Chapter 2 is called, “Because God’s Love is Perfect, I Don’t Have to Be”.
 
In this chapter she talks about pretending. We “tell people we’re fine even when we’re not, because we want to be fine“, . I love what she says here on page 31, “Although we tell people we’re fine, what we really mean is that we are Frazzled, Irritated, Neurotic & Exhausted”. Amen!!
 
Here’s something else she says about pretending on page 32, “Pretending leads to hiding and isolation. What we need is someone who will pursue us and accept us even when we’re flawed. Yet most of us doubt anyone would ever stick with us if we let them get too close. So we put up walls and hide our struggles, even from God, hoping we’ll convince Him and everyone else that we’re fine“.
 
I know I can relate to the above statement. There are many times in my life where I’ve felt I was better off just hiding my struggles from people because I wasn’t sure how they were going to react. Maybe it’s because I’ve listened to the lies of the enemy for too long. Especially when I was younger & wanted to be accepted by others. So I put myself out there & then I get rejected. So, as a defense mechanism, as I grew older it was easy to put up walls to keep myself hidden from others.
 
She then goes on to talk about Sam aka the Samaritan woman & how it is one of her favorite pictures of God’s pursuit of us. It really is a good example of how God pursues us, if you think about it. John 4:4 tells us that Jesus “had to go through Samaria”. Renee writes, “Jews considered Samaria to be the scum of the earth. Usually if they were near Samaria they would travel around it – but not Jesus. He had to go through Samaria, because He knew Sam would be there.” (page 36) I also loved this statement further down , “Jesus met Sam in one of the loneliest parts of her day. In the same way, He is there waiting for us in the midst of our imperfect lives, when our pain & failures confirm our self doubts.”
 
Now, on the previous page (35) she states that “many theologians believe that instead of avoiding the scorching heat of the sun, she went to the well at noon to avoid the scorching pain of others’ rejection and judgement.”
 
I know I can relate to that last statement. There have been many times in my life when I have gone out of my way to avoid others because I may have to deal with either their rejection or judgement.
 
I love this statement on page 37, “If you’ve ever doubted God’s personal pursuit of you, let this truth sink in, my friend: wherever you are, He wants to meet you there. He is waiting for you to stop, come up close, and turn your heart to listen to His. You don’t have to pretend things are fine when they aren’t. He knows what is going on in your thoughts. Nothing could keep Him from wanting to be with you.”
 
That statement is so true. It’s one thing I love about Jesus. I don’t have to pretend with Him. He already knows my pains & struggles. He knows when I’m hurt, upset, worried or fearful. He’s not like others who may reject or judge me. The only thing I have to do is accept His invitation to stop & be willing to meet with Him.
 
Here are a couple of statements from pages 40 & 41 that stuck out to me.
 
On page 40, Renee gives the definition of the word “KNOW”. The greek word is yada, which means a deep emotional experience; a bonding between two people when one truly feels the emotions of the other. Jesus knows your pain, fears, doubts, and disappointments. He understands your dreams and desires. (p. 41)
 
“Although some of us feel uncomfortable that God knows so much about us, it is good to be known, to be listened to and not judged. Jesus is the only One who can meet our deepest needs to be accepted and delighted in simply who we are.”  (p. 41)
 
“By offering Sam eterenal life, (see John 4:13-15) Jesus was offering her the gift of His Holy Spirit, who would cleanse her sins. But even more than that, it would lead her into a relationship where she could know the one true God and be known by Him.”
 
“Christianity is the only faith that offers a relationship with the living God. We don’t just know about our God; our God wants us to know Him. ”
 
On page 42, Renee talks about our image of God. She states, “Oftentimes our image of God is shaped by early childhood memories and perceptions, good and bad.” She goes on to talk about how her perception of God was based on her image of her own father. She states that she “perceived God as distant, unavailable and unapproachable.” Which I something I could totally relate to.
 
I was closer to my dad than my mom growing up, maybe because he seemed like the ‘fun’ parent & my mom was more “stern.” Usually if mom said no, I would go to dad & try to pursuade him into saying yes. So, when my parents seperated when I was 18 – 3 years after getting saved – it was heart-breaking & devastating. I went through my “prodigal daughter” phase & tried distancing myself from God. When I did finally come back to God, I felt like I had to “prove” myself worthy of His love and acceptance. Even though I was the one who distanced myself from God, I felt that if I didn’t behave the right way or do the right things, that God would leave me also.
 
It’s taken me several years to finally accept God’s love & mercy & not have to try to earn or accept it. It’s very freeing & liberating when you can get to that place, knowing you don’t have to stay on God’s good side for Him to love you. Or ever have to worry that you may do or say the wrong thing that will cause Him to leave or abandon you. His word says that He will never leave us nor forsake us. (Hebrews 13:5)
 
I love what Renee says on page 43, “A personal relationship with God sets us free to be all we were created to be. As children of God we were designed to find our identity, our significance, and our confidence in Him.”
 
Further down she says, “The only way we’ll have a confident heart is if we move beyond knowing about God to knowing and relying on Him – depending on His Word with our whole heart, mind and soul.”
 
 
 

Beautifully Broken — His Princess Ministries

Beautifully Broken — His Princess Ministries

I subscribe to the daily “love letters” from His Princess ministries & yesterdays letter reminded me of the song, “Beautiful Things by Gungor. I just love that God can take what is broken & turn it into something beautiful. I also love that He loves us so much that we can come to Him as we are, but He also loves us too much to leave us that way! So, I wanted to share this video today. I hope you enjoy.

Quest for the Truth | Messages | Maranatha Fellowship Church

Quest for the Truth

My pastor started this new 4 part series on Sunday called “The Quest”. As the 1st line of his sermon notes states, “For the next four weeks, we (as a church) will be on a quest, a pursuit, a search for the things of God”

I’m really excited about it & if you’re interested, you can read part one at the link above. 🙂